i felt like my heart had been so thoroughly and irreparably broken that there could be no real joy again..

everyone wanted me to get help and rejoin life, pick up the pieces and move on, i tried to, but i just had to lie in the mud with my arms wrapped around myself, eyes closed, grieving, until i didn’t have to anymore..

i wondered how long this could last… maybe someday.. years from now if the pain would just decrease to the point where i could bear it, i would be able to look back on those few short months that would always be the best of my life.

in the end we only regret the chances we didn’t take, the relationship we were afraid to have, and the decisions we waited too long to make..





One comment

  1. 92177 personal trainer · July 8, 2012

    You should immediately stop working out if you’re in pain.

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